1. Writing countless numbers of applications week after week
  2. Getting countless "Thanks for your application. Unfortunately we decided to go with someone else" because there are 150+ applicants for every damn position
  3. Starring at that blank piece of paper having no inspiration to write yet another application for a job I want
  4. The words flicker around me together with all my thoughts- senseless and pointless
  5. I feel like freakin Britney Spears in her first vid
  6. Giphy
  7. I need stuff to do - all this time I have on my hands goes into a black hole.
  8. Nothing gets done this way besides drinking coffee, looking at the clock and discovering new music.
  9. But where will that get me.
  10. Nowhere
  11. I miss having colleagues and being social
  12. I miss being creative now that creativity is nowhere to be found
  13. I miss pushing myself to the limit
  14. Static
  15. What I find even more frustrating is that I start classes next Monday to become an educated coach in organization, leadership and life, but I have to write 2-3 job applications a week till I begin.
    Even though I won't be available to take a job until I get my diploma by end September.
  16. Which stresses me more out. Cause I keep thinking about afterwards and how things will look then 😩