Soul searching pt. 1 - the love thing
Writing about falling in love gives me a lot of time to think about what that is to me
- •One of my friends said to me a while ago, that I had a too romantic idea of what falling in love really is
- •That I expect to much of the term "falling in love"
- •This made me wonder
- •Am I more in love with the idea of falling in love than actually falling in love?
- •Has all the fairytales I've been told since I was a child ruined the truth about how people fall in love?
- •Do I expect the man of my dreams to show up at my doorstep because that's how it happens in the fairytales?
- •Is it wrong to believe that somewhere out there, there's s a man who is perfect for me?
- •Or am I hoping for something that doesn't exist?
- •Maybe it's more comfortable to dream of falling in love and finding true love than exposing myself to the risk of rejection. Let alone the vulnerability that comes with love.
- •Is it a comforting thought that falling in love is sparks and sweet music rather than 2-3 drinks in - stumbling through a conversation at a cocktail bar some random Saturday night?
- •The thought of telling friends when they ask how I met the guy and I reply "we met through a dating site" puts a dark mark on the whole thought of what falling in love is.
- •Falling in love cannot be forced or matched through a series of test - but is it they way to go these days?
- •The digital relationship, where the process of falling in love is planned by a computer or an agent the future?
- •Will the ever romantic people end up alone because they fail to give up on a long lost dream?
- •As I get older I've realized that lingering in the pasts "loves" with the what ifs? and "why did I's? come more easily than when I was younger when time was just a word.
- •And then I start to wonder if we only get 1 great love for every period in life because we fail to open our eyes while waiting to fall in love the way we expect.