Ambivalence About Bumpers
I'm on the fence.
- •At first I was very excited about a new social medium where I could interact with my list friends.It was so much fun to hear the real voices of people I care about yet knew only from their written words.
- •I loved the opportunity to hear people sing, laugh, and talk to each other.
- •At first I thought I would just listen, enjoying what others say, but not speaking myself.I am somewhat self-conscious of my slow and hesitant speech that was once quick and sharp like a typical northeast Jersey girl.
- •But I quickly realized I was among my list friends after all, and I published my first few podcasts.And of course everyone was kind and sweet to me because you always are.
- •I was afraid speaking to everyone would affect my ability to stay completely authentic.I was afraid that the closer it got to real life, the more I would slip into avoiding difficult subjects, worrying my opinions my hurt someone's feelings, and staying away from controversy.
- •I'm still afraid this previous item might be the case.I struggle to find anything to create a podcast about. I tried stories but I remember them sporadically. Since drafts were removed, I start lists on Notes and add to them as I get more ideas. Then I copy and paste when I am ready. I realize I can do this with Bumpers, too, but it just seems different with the spoken word.
- •I find the comments on Bumpers hard to sort out, probably because my mental skills are aging out.With written lists it's easy to see what list the comments refer to.
- •I do feel self-conscious listening to my speech now. I was an eloquent speaker most of my adult life. The decline is so obvious to me. It's almost frightening.If I knew something about a subject, I could speak about it extemporaneously and people would think it was prepared in advance. I could teach a subject I knew without notes and it would be logical, easy to understand, and engaging. I could reach people who had previously struggled with a concept. I am sorry for being so egotistical, but it is to illustrate my difficulty hearing my hesitant, lifeless, flat speech.
- •So I am not sure Bumpers is for me.I like to participate, not remain passive. Just listening doesn't feel like the right fit for me. Yet I am not enjoying making the podcasts.
- •I'm worried people will not list much. I love you guys and I hope you stay here even if you like Bumpers better.But I get that everything changes rapidly now, and young people usually embrace new media long before I do.
- •So I'm not totally giving up on Bumpers. I still have a foot in both apps. Well, maybe I'm dipping a toe in Bumpers anyway.See you mostly here, and maybe a little bit there. ❤️