IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE MY FIRST LIST
My first list was about the chaos in my life and this is kind of a line by line review/update on how things are going.
- •My bestfriend had a temper tantrum and blocked me on everythingIt might have been a misunderstanding? I can't say anything in her defense. She still has some of my favorite clothes and I'm not going to see her for a pretty long time.
- •I haven't told many people about thisI don't want people to like feel some type of way toward her and I don't wanna seem bitter. I do still wanna be her friend.
- •My old flame and I are trying to rekindle. Well, me and a few old flames are trying to rekindleI don't see it working out to be honest
- •I've been writing emo ass poetry on a side tumblr blogNo suicide notes. I'm getting better(?)
- •I stopped with the physical self harm and moved on to emotional self harmI've gotten better in some aspects, worse in others. Ya win some....
- •In the spirit of Thanksgiving...I really want a Patti LaBelle pie. If Only You Knew how much I want that damn pie.
- •I don't think about my dad as oftenHe's a deadbeat and has been so since I was 2. My nostalgic, what-if period has passed.
- •I've given up on being in love with people who aren't available to meMy friend is not/was not/will probably never be available to me. I tried to like start dating my first significant other ever again and she told me I'm too much of a headache and I just accepted it. Maybe someday.
- •I'm sleeping again