In the mind of anxiety
When you have anxiety, you see a situation through a worst-case looking glass. It can freeze you if you don't know how to manage it. For a look into the mind of anxiety, and how ridiculous it can be, here are some pretty basic, common things I think. (Coupled with an accelerated heart rate & sudden sweating)
- •"They responded to my not-totally-positive message... They're going to rip me apart. Maybe I won't open it."
- •"They said they 'need to talk to me'.. I'm going to get yelled at. Where can I hide? How can I leave?"
- •"I was wrong about that rule. Those refs probably think I'm dumb and won't want to work with me now. Maybe I should stop reffing."
- •"Oh god, I was unhappy in messages two days in a row. He's going to think I'm too emotional and leave. Maybe I should break it off."
- •"I know she said she wants to work with me, but what if I call and she laughs at me because it was just a joke. Maybe I shouldn't call."
- •"That person sounded unhappy. They must hate me. I will avoid them."
- •"No one invites me to hang out, or chats me up on Facebook anymore. My team is probably happier without me. My foster team probably doesn't actually like me. Maybe I shouldn't play after I'm healed."
- •"No one is going to hire me, you heard what has been said about your resume. You should accept fast food & pain and not send that application."
- •"I hear the garage door. Mom could be mad that I unloaded the dryer to put my stuff in. Quick! Upstairs before they come in!"