THE SHAME OF WANTING

  1. They say that you will only find someone when you aren't looking.
  2. And they usually say it in a way that implies looking is shameful.
  3. Normally the ones giving me this piece of mind have the luxury of already having "found someone". So I thank them and I roll my eyes back into my skull and move on with my life.
  4. But I need to know-is it really that bad to WANT a relationship? Should we be punishing ourselves for craving the only thing that's an absolute?
    Love IS the only absolute.
  5. I've been fortunate enough to get to travel. I've spent a Christmas in Berlin. I've gone to a wedding on an island in Seattle.
  6. I have friendships so beautiful that it aches to think about the depth of them.
  7. I spend every second of my free time doing things I love. I have hobbies and passions and I don't want for anything.
  8. But still, I remember what it was like to be in love.
  9. All of those things I mentioned still existed... I just shared them with someone else.
  10. And in return, I got to have some of their things as well.
  11. It was the most beautiful time of my life.
  12. And I want to have that again.
  13. I know you can't rush love. Which is why I'm not. I'm enjoying the traveling and the drinks after work and the laughing with friends until tears stream down my face.
    Because that stuff IS just as beautiful to have.
  14. But I won't let people give me shame for wanting.
  15. (How Carrie Bradshaw was this list? Proud of myself)