THE AFTER EFFECTS OF AN AUDITION

I had it on Monday and I really wanted this one!
  1. 1.
    Mixed feelings
    The first take was really. Not sure of the second take. But I'm my worst judge. When I think I did amazing, I don't get called. When I think I messed it up, I get a callback
  2. 2.
    The nausea has subsided and I find myself starving
    I can only have crackers or pretzels and chamomile tea before an audition. Or I eat, but it usually doesn't settle well. After the audition, I need nutrients.
  3. 3.
    I mentally exhaust myself going over the audition in my head while eating
  4. 4.
    Hope for a call in 24 hours
    I think I connected well. I was off book. I really hope for a call back, it could happen
  5. 5.
    Hope for a call within 48 hours
    It doesn't shoot for a couple weeks, they could call me today too. By 7, I'm feeling bad but keep it well hidden
  6. 6.
    Day three I feel totally sick and sad like I lost something precious
    The opportunity, the experience. Can't eat
  7. 7.
    Self doubt
    Do I suck? I should've been more connected. I should looked the other way. I can't believe I even went in thinking I could get the part
  8. 8.
    Mourning
    I'm sad I didn't get it. Chocolate, swedish fish and wine are my comforts
  9. 9.
    Let it go
    Maybe it wasn't the right part for me. Maybe I should've been even more prepared. I learned something from this experience.
  10. 10.
    Hope for another great opportunity
    James Caan said that if you miss the bus eventually there will be another one. I'm still working on 6-8 but I'm THINKING about 9.
  11. 11.
    And then they call you (over a week later!!!!) and you find out you book it💃