πŸ’―. It's the 9th of April, the πŸ’―th day of 2016, and this is my πŸ’―th list. This is a list of lists.
  1. β€’
    First, fuck you, The List App
    Like in, I ❀️ you but as all relationships, we fuck up sometimes
  2. β€’
    I had this list up to 75 before it refused to save as a draft
    75! I read other lists going through this and meh-ed at it until it happened to me 😑 Now that list stayed empty and untitled. No fun, fun bun πŸ˜‘
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    (If you think I planned this list for some time: yes πŸ‘‘)
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    But I figured out that a draft may become unsaved due to the disintegrating emojis
    So if you see the weird wingdings, backspace that shit up and retype the whole thing. Type a new item and save again. Should work.
  5. β€’
    Second first, I'm boring
    Who's bloody idea was it to list πŸ’― things anyway? πŸ‘€
  6. β€’
    You have been warned
    β›‘ is highly advised. This list is also going from memory in a few hours, hence highly suspect and random
  7. β€’
    A New Year resolution died today
    I've only read 1.5 books so far this year. I just don't have the interest nor the compulsion to read. I'm fine with reading long articles but too TLDR
  8. β€’
    I see a few other resolutions failing wayside
    How the hell is it April already?!
  9. β€’
    Which may be related to the next thing: The last full TV series I watched was The X Files Season 5
  10. β€’
    I wish I could love you, TV series!
    I try, I really do. I would watch the first few eps of a thing before I get bored or the characters are just too white, predictable, inexcusable or just not relatable (I know, themes in The Walking Dead are all-inclusive πŸ‘€)
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    Perhaps that's why I prefer watching movies in the theatres
    For two hours, I'm focused on just the film and nothing else
  12. β€’
    Things of less interests now: Running 😫 History Channel's reality stuff πŸ™„ This humidity 😀
  13. β€’
    But, I can binge a thing
    Like the Lore podcast right now. I'm accepting recs for similar podcasts πŸ“
  14. β€’
    Also binging: reading this app's lists, any snack, buying handbags/purses
    There are no snacks in my house πŸ™πŸ½ I start to buy handbags/purses alone lately πŸ‘€
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    But we do have our vices, right?
    I think my binging is just harmful to me 😁
  16. β€’
    I don't smoke, drink or do drugs recreationally
    Because of a promise, I don't behave any different under the influence and I don't like not being in control, or being around people who can control me when I'm under the influence
  17. β€’
    (75% of my friends smoke. I see them being affected by this over the years.)
  18. β€’
    The single dudes at my workplace are pairing up
    Not together though that would be interesting and impossible
  19. β€’
    So they have this smiley glow of the accomplished and vanquished
  20. β€’
    They soon turn their light on me
  21. β€’
    And I'm all: πŸ™…πŸ½
    I'm not against the idea of companionship, I'm against this idea imposed on me unknowingly
  22. β€’
    And work lunches are now (sometimes unwanted) lessons of coupled bliss and compromise
    These men mean well. I like that they have good thoughts for me, no matter how misguided though they might be
  23. β€’
    But before that lovely coupledom, I think I would prefer another twosome first: 2 cats
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    If I ever want another, I would like to have 2, preferably siblings
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    Because a single cat may bring upon anti-social issues
  26. β€’
    I would name them Amzy and Yzma
  27. β€’
    And ginger ones, please
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    (But I'm commitment-phobic so that's another thing)
    Shared responsibilities can be useful at times
  29. β€’
    I am Garfield
    Yes, we are born in the same date, so we aged grudgingly every year 😻 I like reading the comic's buildup to my birthday every year; the OLDness, the gimmegimmegimme foooooood, the attention 😎
  30. β€’
    Ever had those days where a singer or songs stayed with you for days?
  31. β€’
    Madonna's Ray of Light and Confessions on a Dance Floor are on constant repeat these last few days
  32. β€’
    Her Drowned World/Substitute for Love sounds brilliant sung slowly and deeply in a bathroom
    The acoustics are helpful
  33. β€’
    I'm still mesmerized by her Nothing Really Matters music video
    Yes, I note the culture appropriation
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    Also, songs have long lives
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    I love how they take you to places, and just time travel
    Oasis - Stand By Me, Billy Idol songs (I never listened to them then and only discover them lately), GNR - Patience (whistling along always!),
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    (I realise too that this is my first list to contain gifs)
    I have little patience to wait for them to load πŸ˜›
  37. β€’
    Oh, and food! Those bloody hankerings for certain ones!
  38. β€’
    Fried food is a beast, yeah? Well, mine tend to go to the innards of some animals
  39. β€’
    My favs: Fried herring fish eggs, fried chicken livers, fried spicy beef lungs, beef oxtail or tongue stew, beef tripe in spicy coconut milk
    No, no chicken feet for me
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    These things used to be so cheap previously as no one wants them
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    Now they're hard to find and more expensive too
    I miss them. I remember hard the places that do serve them now
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    But. I do not eat some things now that I can do so
    πŸ’ͺ🏼 Hello, adulting. Also, most of them were had weekly as they were cheap and filling when I was a kid
  43. β€’
    Things like: Half-boiled turtle eggs, oysters, bone marrow, boiled cassava leaves, unagi, bean sprouts stirfry, fish eyes
  44. β€’
    My newest nephew arrived three weeks ago
    Look at this little nugget
  45. β€’
    It's been a while since my family last had a baby so the newness is noteworthy
  46. β€’
    It also means that the occupants at my place doubled overnight
    Said nephew's great-grandma is staying till the end of the confinement period.
  47. β€’
    Is anybody else as enthralled by the Panama Papers as me? As in, as incensed too? πŸ‘Ώ
    Check out Panama Papers on Flipboard: http://flip.it/AeTH8
  48. β€’
    It's unsurprising to see the reactions by those named and identified: denials, censorship, censure, removals, admonishments
  49. β€’
    But what gets me is the group of over 400 journalists working on this for over a year
    A year! All those missed meetings and dinners because you have to work on something that can't be shared, the late or early hours because the world is round, said journalists doing this work despite their real day job work, the organised and systematic way that this is managed that it just makes my stoned heart squee delightfully
  50. β€’
    This work is done in secret but shared yet open
    And I for one, can't wait to read more
  51. β€’
    The secret and damning lives of the rich and richer
    It's a universal truth that the main fear of the rich is being a little less richer πŸ’Έ
  52. β€’
    Where I live that is
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    Which brings me to the OPEN INVITATION FOR FOOD AND CONVERSATIONS to anyone passing through here
    If you're here, drop me your email through a list request and I'll bring you out for a lunch/dinner. I may not be a connoisseur of local food but I know people who do πŸ™ƒ
  54. β€’
    But ask me about places to visit, then you're on your own
    I'm queened the most unlocal local person. Expats and foreigners know this place better than I do 😝
  55. β€’
    Being a woman blows
  56. β€’
    A quote illustriously said by a friend's mum NOT to me
    She quoted her mum as she shared her mum's experience in having her womb removed. A necessary surgery, she detailed the emotional and physical pain following the op. We drank another round of coffee to that and sighed the drinks away.
  57. β€’
    There's just so many things going on with our female bodies that science can just go 'fuck' about it
    I was told that breast cancer research is sometimes done on men as such treatments can be controlled better. A woman's body is just too complicated. (I'm paraphrasing this memory)
  58. β€’
    (Not to mention men having a say about it without appreciating our agency)
    This has been eloquently said by better people than me πŸ’ͺ🏼
  59. β€’
    Which brings me to the thing that would be happening to me in the next few months
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    I have a mammogram and ultrasound scheduled in the next two weeks
    The initial check came out better than expected for the doc and I. She doesn't think it's cancer yet but more checks are required. My previous checks by the GPs were more cautionary, which were fine in hindsight
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    (This also means that numerous strangers handled my breasts in the last week)
    I felt unexpectedly fine though. I whipped them out so quickly by the third visit
  62. β€’
    I told my parents, siblings and best bud personally and separately
    My tellings got better and less emotional as I went along. I don't want to worry them unnecessarily, especially when nothing is certain at this point.
  63. β€’
    Still, my parents came over to give me support
    I love them. I try to keep the focus on them rather than the doubts running through me. Some worries are better left unsaid.
  64. β€’
    I'm not that freaked
    Worried, yes but not that freaked
  65. β€’
    There should be surgery by June
    That is something the doc and I are planning for but for now, we wait. I have my insurances in place, and a plan for the to-dos. I will inform the necessary parties when I near those bridges. So, yeah
  66. β€’
    And I'm fine
    I'm still putting my foot in my mouth, talking without thinking, trying to be less of an asshole
  67. β€’
    I do appreciate any good thoughts my way though
    It'll help me more than you think πŸ’žπŸ˜˜
  68. β€’
    I love this emoji lately: πŸ‘€
    And always: πŸ˜ŽπŸ˜±πŸ€”πŸ˜πŸ˜‘
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    And tend to send these along too: πŸΈβ˜•οΈ
    Yes, I'm late to the party
  70. β€’
    I miss milk
    Of the cow origin. Drinking them is making me sick lately. At first I thought it was food in general, but when I went cold turkey on it and had them only when I had no choice, I really felt bad after doing so. I felt bloated, nauseous and just uneasy for the next few days. Does one get lactose intolerant after decades of having them?
  71. β€’
    Not having milk sucks
    Which means I can't have dairy too. That means cheese. And I love cheese 😞
  72. β€’
    Soy milk has been a revelation lately
    I've had them since young, and we make pretty good beancurd around here. Things I need to find are non-milk of yogurt, which is an impossibility I think
  73. β€’
    But going milk-free has its upsides
  74. β€’
    Like I do appreciate good coffee on its own, and nothing distracts it
    Not Starbucks though. Their coffee needs help, always
  75. β€’
    And one less staple to buy, yes, yes?
  76. β€’
    Speaking of buying things I don't need
    I'm contemplating buying the iPad Pro 9.7
  77. β€’
    I know it's not necessary but it would help in the waiting of the coming weeks
    I would need to spend about half a day at the hospital clinic per visit. I'll be alone for all of them. A distraction would be nice. And for after, if any.
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    (I wish books are a refuge, and news are insightful, but they aren't now. I'm giving in to consumerism)
  79. β€’
    I'm justifying this buy to myself
    But I think I will succumb to it. I'm just delaying this decision
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    Unless someone has a better idea?
    I'm open to suggestions.
  81. β€’
    And some last tenets of my life:
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    Say 'thank you' always
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    Greet your familiars
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    Let others show up
    Let 'you' come after, later or never
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    Drink water first thing in the morning
    If plain water is bleah, green tea or with lemon helps
  86. β€’
    Cut down on sugar
    Really now. I went cold turkey on sugar in February and my brain froze for 3 days. I was short with everyone and my behaviour moved to extremes. Sugar is so, if not more addictive than I ever thought.
  87. β€’
    "Never half-ass two things. Whole ass one thing."
    Thank you, Ron Swanson (I don't even watch this show 😜)
  88. β€’
    Believe people when they tell you who they are
    I take people literally. Maybe I should try harder at the nuances, or reading between the lines. But I overthink that way, and I rather be blunt than wrong.
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    Travel if you can, and often
    Familiarity breeds complacency. Complacency breeds apathy.
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    If you don't ask, the answer is always 'no'
  91. β€’
    React and keep your words
    I can't help my face but I can do something about what I say. I'm really bad at this, and I am trying harder
  92. β€’
    You can have too many red lipsticks
    They're always multiplying πŸ˜«πŸ’„πŸ‘„πŸ’‹
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    Keep records of everything
    I learn this from working with government clients. They're sticklers for having everything in writing, and I rather overdo them then be in the wrong.
  94. β€’
    Love your favs, forgive them, love them anyway
    Your familiars, U2, The List App, the public transportation system
  95. β€’
    Be comfortable with just you
  96. β€’
    Pay attention
    It matters, no matter how little
  97. β€’
    Don't be afraid to be wrong
    This comes with asking. And not assuming. The line is thin and gray and always moving. This is scary, and sometimes being scared motivates me (Being a middle child, I instigate many things)
  98. β€’
    You have the right to change your mind
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    You came to the end! Thank you for reading!
    I'm chuffed you made it this far πŸ€— Or if you skipped till the end 😜 Thank you, thank you, thank you 😘 (And I did it, yay!)