THINGS I HOPE HAPPEN TONIGHT
- •multiple people come on to me so I can feel validated or wanted
- •I do enough drugs/drink enough alcohol so my depression leaves me alone for a couple of hours
- •there's a party and I can dance there
- •ultimate form of validation- someone actively seeks me out to hook up with them
- •no one tries to hook up with me anymore & it makes me question my worth in a lot of ways
- •am I handsome?
- •am I likeable?
- •am I charming?
- •have I become so absorbed in my various internet personas that now no one can see me for who I am & instead only identify me as someone who is always hiding?