THOUGHTS I'VE HAD WHILE WAITING TO HEAR IF I GOT THAT JOB

I really really want this one.
  1. It's such a long shot I'm never gonna get it
  2. But I already made it this far so who knows!
  3. It's been a while since the interview
  4. But they said it would be a few weeks before they let us know
  5. Okay it's been a few weeks I'm definitely out
  6. HOLY SHIT THEY CALLED MY REFERENCES
  7. I think my references are good
  8. My references totally said nice things, right?
  9. Oh god, it's been a while since they called references
  10. They hated me
  11. I'm never gonna get this job or any other job ever
  12. Maybe they're just taking their time, they weren't very specific about when they would let applicants know
  13. What am I gonna do if I don't get it?
  14. What am I going to do if I do get it?
  15. Why can't I think about literally anything else but this stupid job
  16. It's not stupid it's awesome and I just want it so bad!
  17. I think I'll be relieved once I know, regardless of the outcome
  18. That's a lie I'm gonna be so sad if I don't get it
  19. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH