WHAT I WANNA SAY TO YOUR BITCH ASS ON NIGHTS LIKE THESE

I guess it's time I told y'all
  1. That we were great friends
    Before all the emotion started to seep in, I just loved talking to you. Cracking jokes about your crappy technology & lack of rhythm. Hearing you laugh so hard on the other line when I knew I was being corny as hell.
  2. That you're so intelligent & promising
    I knew this from the first moment we met. You were taking a leadership role at a conference in your first year there but you showed no anxiety or hesitance. You found a way to engage even the smallest of people. And that's carried you so far to where you are now. I really do believe you'll be president one day
  3. That my mom loved you
    Y'all talked like the best of friends the first time you met. She was so overjoyed to meet a young black man who cared for me & you loved showing us around your hometown. I used to be so jealous when y'all would talk on the phone longer than we did.
  4. That we would've been dope together
    But you instead decided to pull away from me. Some of it natural, other intentional. We found something at a young age that didn't make sense to either of us and we both underestimated what it could be.
  5. That you stopped trying
    And that hurt. I couldn't understand how distance or other commitments were real excuses. This is part of our story I have yet to forgive.
  6. That you fucked up my expectations
    In he best and worst of ways. On the one hard, I know what it means to be deeply loved by another, but now hold new relationships to that expectation.
  7. That I never should've said "I love you"
    Or taken it back right after. I was young & thought everyone wore their hearts on their sleeve. I think that hurt you deep down, but knew you would never admit that to me.
  8. But I still do
    And seeing you again brought back all those emotions. But I can't force you to change. So I'll respectfully try to move on. But a small part of me will never forget when you said that one day you might be lucky enough to be my husband.