If You Are in Your 20s and Display These Attitudes/ Behaviors to Me, It Makes My Heart Ache

  1. You are precocious and filled with knowledge that is beyond your years, but it's unmoored to humility.
  2. You pretend to have no feelings/ say you feel "dead inside" as a strategy to put the people around you at ease (and yourself at ease, because acknowledging the depth and power of those feelings would be fucking terrifying).
  3. You have no conception that your sexuality is sacred and to be held close and protected at all costs.
  4. You allow yourself to be abused.
  5. You allow yourself to be an abuser.
  6. You are romantically involved with someone much older than you who is exploiting this power imbalance to milk you for your admiration (and sex).
  7. You are ambitious: scary, not-at-ease-until-you-conquer-the-world ambitious.
  8. You move through the world in constant fear - some of it real, and some of it strategy to put the people around you at ease. (And yourself at ease, because acknowledging the massive amount of power you actually possess would be fucking terrifying.)
  9. You believe that life, love and opportunity have already passed you by for good, even though you're in your 20s.
  10. You are totally unaware of your own worth, and how ridiculously beautiful you are.
    And a big part of the reason my heart aches is because I feel a longing for MY 20s, when these were MY attitudes/ behaviors. All of them!