😱

  1. I had an interview last week.
    Doing web "design", really web maintenance👎🏼, but the company seems flexible and people were nice.
  2. And I got the job offer.
    And it's a really good offer. And I haven't worked in an office in 7 years.
  3. So, I'm going to take it.
  4. I signed my little guy up for preschool.
    He's going from full time home with me to full day school and after care😭
  5. I know he'll be ok, it just makes me sad.
    My oldest will go from half day to full day kindergarten plus aftercare.
  6. And I'm sad to miss the summer with them.
    I made it through the shitty winter months stuck indoors.
  7. But, it will be a huge financial relief.
    Which we'll need to send both kids to catholic school next year. And my husband's company is on shaky ground right now.
  8. I still feel sad, even though it's probably the right decision.
    It will be good for my mental health, I just wish it wasn't so much time away from them.
  9. I'm worried I'll get there and be incompetent.
    I hate failing at things and I know I'm under qualified for this job.
  10. So, I'm a rollercoaster of emotions.
    I haven't been on much, and I have no energy, because it's all spiraling into my anxiety.
  11. But, I'm trying to be positive, because there will be a lot of benefits.
    I'm just mourning my life as a stay at home mom.