an open apology to ...myself?
  1. I haven't been writing lists.
  2. But I've been here, lurking, reading, liking.
  3. I just finished high school.
  4. I thought that now that I have so much free time, it would be a good thing but I feel like free time is also kind of ..stressful?
  5. there are so many things I could be doing, but I also don't really have anything I have to do
  6. I am so nervous yet excited for the future but I am so worried about everything
  7. there a sort of restlessness I feel yet I love this relaxation
  8. apologies for my scrambled thoughts
  9. I'm going to try and list more now