IT'S OVER (BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL OVER)

  1. I went to my gyno today for a follow-up scan.
  2. I don't need a D&C!
  3. When this whole shit-storm first hit, I went to one of my colleagues at the hospital where I work because I didn't have time to go to my OBGYN.
  4. She gave me miso twice but the doses just weren't high enough. The hospital where I work has really low dosing protocols which tends to work but obviously didn't for me. Twice.
  5. So last week I finally went to my own gyno and she was just SO NICE. I had forgotten how nice she was.
  6. And because she's in private practice she could give me the meds that really work.
  7. Anyway. No retained products.
  8. It's over.
  9. But is it really?
  10. In these four weeks so much has happened.
  11. I was hit by probably the worst depressive episode I've ever had.
  12. I've changed a lot in terms of my views.
  13. Marriage. Kids.
    I'm not sure I still want any of those.
  14. I've changed, yet I feel somehow more in touch with who I am.
    But to get that to reality? When all this might still be the hormones speaking?
  15. But I went for my first run in a long time tonight so maybe I'm recovering.
  16. I don't really know.