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    I'm lying in bed and applying night cream and I just realised my nose stud isn't there.
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    And usually this is cause for alarm because this damn nose piercing closes so quickly.
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    But I think I'm just going to sleep and if the piercing is still open tomorrow morning, I'll find another jewel.
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    It feels kind of serendipitous because I've been toying with the idea of taking it out for a while.
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    I got it at the end of 2011 - my third tear of med school.
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    And it was a big decision because a lot of people are very against piercings and tattoos in doctors.
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    I did a lot of research and a lot of introspection before I decided, screw 'em.
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    I actually never got any flack for it. One or two patients commented - old ladies who exclaimed, "oh! My granddaughter has a piercing like yours!" πŸ‘΅πŸΌπŸ‘΅πŸΎ
    They were so sweet.
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    The most a senior doctor ever said on the matter was, "You have a nose piercing. That's... atypical." (And then he laughed.)
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    But in many ways, taking it out has been a more difficult decision than getting the piercing in the first place.
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    Because people might see my removing it as a sign that I admit I was somehow wrong.
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    Or that I suddenly disagree with nose piercings.
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    Which is hardly the case.
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    I'm just... a little tired of it I guess.
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    And that's allowed, as we grow older. We change our appearance. We change what we like about our appearance.
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    (Also now that I'm working in a hospital full time, getting a new piercing is a big infection risk. So if I let the piercing close... I don't get another one.)
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    I just feel like I've spent so much of my life being "different" and contrary and proving people's assumptions and society's constraints wrong. And now all I want is a normal life.
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    And I may have screwed my chances of having that. Because I've become the young woman with the controversies. And standing out isn't nearly as empowering as I used to find it.
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    I actually don't know where all THAT came from.
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    Anyway. My nose jewellery is out for the night.
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    I'll see what tomorrow brings.