Things I wish I didn't know but I do now

  1. My husband has been having an affair since October
  2. She is someone he works with in the city
  3. He won't tell me specifically who she is because that "wouldn't be fair"
    I have since figured out who she is. She is 20 years younger than me. Ugh.
  4. He won't show me his phone because it "will only make things worse"
  5. He's left work specifically to have sex with her in her apartment
  6. He claims he used a condom
  7. He says he will end it with her because it's "just a fling"
  8. He says he still loves me and wants to be married to me
  9. I hate him and love him at the same time