Why I'm Happy I Waited to Wear Makeup Until I Turned 22
- •I was never interested in makeup. At all.Never that annoying daughter in family sitcoms BEGGING her father to let her wear makeup at 12. Nope. Didn't give a shit. My mom hardly wore makeup. My friends didn't. No sisters. So no reason to pay attention to it.
- •I didn't get comfortable in my skin and body until college.I took a lot of pride in dressing up everyday, but I didn't need makeup (other than kajal/kohl occasionally) to feel good.
- •I start my first full-time job in September, and I'm entering the big, bad world of business.Appearances matter. I don't need to have an hour-long routine for my face everyday, but my eyes can't look as dead as they normally do, etc.
- •I'm still restricting myself to just eye and lip makeup.My family has always had terrible facial skin thanks to puberty wreaking havoc on us via acne, and I don't want to agitate it any further. I'd prefer to just let my skin breathe.
- •So, I bought eyeshadow, mascara, lipstick, the basics.It was fun! I like taking notice of these products in real life and feeling good after trying something new on myself.
- •However, I have never been more conscious of my face.I have been extremely conscious of my body since I gained weight at age 12. I used to be so conscious of my face due to acne during puberty, but that went away when I turned 19. I thought there was no way I could pay more attention to my face than I did during puberty, staring at the mirror for twenty minutes wondering why my forehead was cluttered with pimples when everyone else complained about their one.
- •I was wrong.My eyes are even tinier than I thought! The shape of my face makes me look fatter! Why are my lips so scrunched up together?
- •Like Jesus, woman, calm down. You've always liked how you looked. Who cares?These products make me hone in on things I never thought about. To make sure I don't screw up my self-esteem, I have to remind myself I have found myself pretty enough for years before this addition to my life.
- •All I can say is thank God I waited to wear makeup.22-year-old Ria who is somewhat comfortable with being overweight and having bigger thighs can handle the scrutiny of her own face. 15-year-old Ria still trying to figure out her body image could not.