1. heavy eyes
  2. permanent lingering anticipation
  3. nonstop
  4. slow.
  5. a sort of confusion that cannot be explained with just "confusion" or any adjectives, but too "confused" to metaphor-ize this feeling
  6. still cant describe this blend of anticipation, content, stressfully stress free, unlimited self directed space and time .. but bound by space and time still... what the fuck am i trying to describe here