Things I'm learning about myself
idk it's late and I'm thinking and can't sleep so...
- •if you're cool & chill, I will automatically want to continue a relationship with youeven if I know I probably won't see you again or if I know you're probably sleeping around and I'm not actually special at all
- •just because it's summer doesn't mean I get to relax & be stress freetrying to get a job, bring broke, family, friends, relationships, classes, etc
- •I have shitty coping mechanismsfeeling things sucks.
- •I'm kind of a huge bitchI'm judgmental and standoffish. I'll say stuff I probably shouldn't and don't care enough when I do.
- •my type of guy: fuckboyI don't know why but I'm drawn to that. I try to make a conscious effort not to go for them but idk
- •I might curse too much...see past 3 bullet points
- •I seriously lack confidence and self respectcomparing myself to others, holding myself to certain standards that are so difficult to meet
- •my family stresses me out more than schoolgoing home usually ends in me crying
- •not much interests me anymoreI love music & coffee & dogs, but other than that I'm pretty ambivalent. I used to be so motivated and curious
- •and more I'm not gonna put out in the public
- •Clearly lots of negative stuff. But I'm gonna get help.hopefully I'll learn to manage my life a little better c: