I Found My Journal From 10th-12th Grade …

I was looking at old word documents and realized I had a journal that I typed up way back when. It took me a few weeks but I finally remembered the password! I can't believe I'm sharing this publicly …
  1. A little over 18 years ago, and I think my predictions were pretty spot on! Television, phone, and radio all online! This is the least emotion filled entry …
  2. Ahhhhh, quoting Dawson's Creek during season 1. The love of my life was dating a freshman! And I have to live through it! I wish I could find the two depressing poems though … for backstory on Christina, check out my list The First Girl I Ever "Loved" … a Tale of High School Heartbreak
  3. HELP! It's all falling apart again. Is this teenage life?! Oh my goodness. Could I be anymore dramatic? I love how the next entry a few months later was like "oh, they only dated for 36 hours." I was playing it off like it was all goooood. I was still, ultimately, in love with her
  4. OH SNAP! Blues Traveler lyrics to show just how much she hurts me when she leads me on. The words were like a knife into my soul
  5. Fast forward to senior year. I'm hopelessly crushing on Nicole, a girl I was very good friends with. We worked together. SHE was dating a friend of mine. And he treated her like shit. This is an AIM convo between my friend Michelle and me. Apparently Michelle was willing to have sex with me. I just replied "that's sweet" WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!
  6. Everyone said she deserved better and we should date. She stuck with the jerk who hurt her. I've been through the same exact scenario over and over again. I fall for someone, they love hanging out with me, being my friend. But they don't want to date me. I'm there with a shoulder to cry on when they get hurt. Then it happens again. Vicious cycle.
  7. Is this oversharing? It's so interesting to see how intensely emotional I was. I didn't think anything of it at the time. But looking at it now … wow.