I was looking at old word documents and realized I had a journal that I typed up way back when. It took me a few weeks but I finally remembered the password! I can't believe I'm sharing this publicly …
  1. A little over 18 years ago, and I think my predictions were pretty spot on! Television, phone, and radio all online! This is the least emotion filled entry …
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  2. Ahhhhh, quoting Dawson's Creek during season 1. The love of my life was dating a freshman! And I have to live through it! I wish I could find the two depressing poems though … for backstory on Christina, check out my list The First Girl I Ever "Loved" … a Tale of High School Heartbreak
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  3. HELP! It's all falling apart again. Is this teenage life?! Oh my goodness. Could I be anymore dramatic? I love how the next entry a few months later was like "oh, they only dated for 36 hours." I was playing it off like it was all goooood. I was still, ultimately, in love with her
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  4. OH SNAP! Blues Traveler lyrics to show just how much she hurts me when she leads me on. The words were like a knife into my soul
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  5. Fast forward to senior year. I'm hopelessly crushing on Nicole, a girl I was very good friends with. We worked together. SHE was dating a friend of mine. And he treated her like shit. This is an AIM convo between my friend Michelle and me. Apparently Michelle was willing to have sex with me. I just replied "that's sweet" WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!
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  6. Everyone said she deserved better and we should date. She stuck with the jerk who hurt her. I've been through the same exact scenario over and over again. I fall for someone, they love hanging out with me, being my friend. But they don't want to date me. I'm there with a shoulder to cry on when they get hurt. Then it happens again. Vicious cycle.
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  7. Is this oversharing? It's so interesting to see how intensely emotional I was. I didn't think anything of it at the time. But looking at it now … wow.