So its two days into four days of fall break and my campus is barren. This loneliness has given me a lot to reflect on. I might add that my transition into college so far has been very rough and uncomfortable. But its a learning experience obviously:
- •You are fine the way you areI always think "well maybe if I act a little more bubbly" or "maybe I should agree with something I wouldn't normally" to make friends. Well that's basically me agreeing to be uncomfortable the whole time. Not cool.
- •Talking isn't that hardYa gotta let autopilot take over. As an intj (lol) I am always thinking strategically and carefully. So I'm always reluctant to say things in hopes of not losing the conversation. I always end up getting lost and stuttering af when I think too much.
- •Just do it.Go see the professor's office hours. Go to that club meeting. Go to tutoring. Go. Do it. You'll thank yourself later. Don't let anxiety hold you back from succeeding.
- •Confidence really does turn people on to youIt makes them tremble. But also it makes them know that you're a friend.
- •You should care about everythingDO THAT FUCKING EXTRA CREDIT FOR THE CLASS YOU ALREADY HAVE AN A IN. YOUR GPA STILL MATTERS. WTF
- •Be a kiss assProfessors are biased as hell. Participate. Office hours. Emails. Let em know you're interested in your class and work.
- •While social anxiety can be hard to defeat, you CAN get out of it.Swallow the knot in your throat. Take a deep breath. Squeeze your eyes shut. Take that step forward and let momentum push you through. It'll all unravel. If you fail, just know you had some practice.
- •You'll find your grooveSome people are late bloomers. In any context. Just don't forget to forgive yourself. Accept that things don't come easily. You're in college to better yourself in every way. Fate is a funny little concept that can be applied. Everything will work out in the direction you want it to. Emphasis on the want part. If you want it, work for it.