The Hardest Parts About Relapse

In my ED
  1. 1.
    Focusing on my failures instead of remembering how much progress I've made since I graduated college three years ago.
    I struggled with such severe anorexia for a long time, so bad that I was almost forced to take a semester off from my university if I didn't gain weight. I feel like I now eat healthily and normally at least 75% of the time. Sometimes even more. That's huge. But it's p hard not to feel like a piece of shit right now tbh
  2. 2.
    Stuck in black and white thinking.
    "Now that I fucked up I might as well do whatever I want before I start over"
  3. 3.
    Trying to reminding myself it's just a slipup and one day I will be free
    Feels impossible
  4. 4.
    Resetting that fucking counter.
    Everything hurts.