Sweet Surrenders

After a day spent with family (I made it through!), I'm watching the sunset in Greensboro and thinking about what's next. It's been a rough 7 days but there's always right now to change things.
  1. Letting go enough to still be friends with an ex
    Because reminiscing doesn't tear you apart anymore. Plus you remember why they once mattered to you and that's more important than the past hurts.
  2. Being on the other side of something that once was so utterly terrifying
    Because you took a leap.
  3. Arriving to that place where you can accept and love the family you were born into
    While simultaneously creating your family of choice. The ones that want more for you than you want for yourself. The ones that bring no baggage and familial history to the table and just love you for you.
  4. Realizing that instead of just thinking you matter
    You actually believe it.
  5. Acknowledging the little things
    And not staying caught up in the things that are out of our control. It's the small stuff to remember. The sunsets. The talks you have with someone when you never look at your watch. Smiling at someone.
  6. Not feeling like you need to hold judgement on someone else's life and decisions
    Realizing you don't have to have an opinion about everything else is liberating.
  7. Realizing you don't have to be so hard on yourself
    Knowing you're doing the best you can in those circumstances is enough. Perfection doesn't exist.
  8. Letting someone be there for you
    That place where you can let your guard down and fall apart if you need to.