Have You Ever Written Something So Disturbingly Pornographic You Never Show It to Anyone?

This is about a novella I wrote years ago, that is good, I'm pretty sure, but I'm terrified to let anyone see it.
  1. Ok, so maybe you showed it to one person, but then he ended up being an appalling person, so you decided perhaps this piece of writing appeals to terrible people and never showed it to anyone else.
  2. You wonder why Anais Nin never had this moral dilemma.
    Probably because she didn't have any children.