THE 5 WORST THINGS ABOUT ME

Inspired by @jetfuelliz. Even though when it comes to my weaknesses I frequently act like the Office episode when Kelly gets interviewed ("I don't have any, asshole!"), these are the worst things about me. Listing is cheaper than therapy.
  1. I constantly seek attention, approval and validation
    I'm basically like tinkerbell, I need it to live. I feed off people praising me for my accomplishments rather than being satisfied with the accomplishment itself. I've always felt the need to please the adults/teachers/superiors in my life and to get their approval. I need validation in a relationship or else I think you actually don't like me and I'm a burden and I like you more than you like me.
  2. I'm really bad at forming close bonds with people
    I'm afraid. Who has two thumbs and deep-seated abandonment issues? 🙋🏻 I still haven't figured out a way to navigate relationships without thinking I'm not good enough and they'll eventually leave, which oftentimes means I push them away. Or I don't even really try 'cause that's better than being rejected. So I tend to keep my relationships with others more casual than I'd actually like.
  3. I rarely leave my comfort zone
    This is less of a character flaw and more something I don't like about myself but every year I resolve to be more spontaneous and open and I've made a lot of progress. Still, I tend to favor planning over spur-of-the-moment, and I don't like putting myself in unfamiliar situations, especially when meeting new people. Two years ago I don't think I would have dared to go to a party where I knew one person, or thrown myself into a friendship group. So, working on it but still.
  4. I pass judgement
    Tbh I firmly believe that some people actually do need to be judged, but I'm working on unlearning elitist behaviors. And I know it's not the Christian thing to do.
  5. I have a big mouth
    A lot of bad things come out of this. Gossip, accidentally talking over people because they don't talk as much or as quick or as loudly, accidentally insulting or offending people because I don't think it through or I misjudge the time for a joke.