A LIST AS A FOLLOW-UP
Inspired by a comment left by the infinitely clever and always charming @Melodie on my "reliving a childhood memory" list.
- •My dad died in an accident when I was 17. My mom, later when I was 35.
- •I've definitely spent enough time pondering the infinite possibilities of what my life would be if my dad was around.
- •I've also come to the following conclusion: my life would be far different with his presence, and that doesn't necessarily mean it would turn out well.
- •I'm proud of the fact that, despite my dad's absence, I made something of myself.
- •I learned I was capable of self-reliance.
- •I figured out how to be a "man" without having to define myself in his example.
- •I set my own terms of what I thought was masculine, that I didn't have to fight other men to resolve a problem, that I didn't have to be an abusive dick (like my dad) to actually be one.
- •I learned that a real man never, ever hits a woman. Never.I've had to break up my dad hitting my mom on more times than I could count.
- •I also learned self-respect, hard work, discipline, and that I could take care of my family and friends.
- •Basically, I learned I had the guts to keep going without him, even when I thought I couldn't.
- •So...honestly, I only miss the memory of him. Waving goodbye was a tough thing in retrospect, but it's just like that.
- •I only wished I could have waved a little longer.
- •Normally, I'd end this with a SEXT, but I think I can let this one ride.
- •Nahhhhh. SEXT