A Personal Li.st

  1. In my first year of college, someone told me that I would have a year that would really run me down while I was going to school.
  2. One year would be traumatic, or sad, or hard to cope with.
  3. My freshman year was easy.
  4. Sophomore year was more difficult, but manageable, and I survived.
  5. This year, my junior year, I think I have reached that year.
  6. It is only November, and I have never felt so run-down before in my life.
  7. So many things have happened, and while individually, I could have handled them, everything has been happening back-to-back, making it extremely difficult to handle each situation.
  8. I was getting straight A's freshman year, now I have mostly B's.
  9. I haven't been keeping up with things as simple as personal hygiene.
  10. I haven't done laundry in weeks.
  11. I haven't cleaned my room or my car in months.
  12. I've had no motivation to do anything besides sleep and watch TV.
  13. I keep cancelling my counseling appointments, even though I know I need them.
  14. I haven't actively tried to hangout with my friends from HS.
  15. I'm completely exhausted.
  16. And I know I have a lot I should be thankful for, but every time I start being more positive, another shitty think happens and I'm back to where I started.
  17. I just don't have the skills or energy or willpower to cope with the situations that happen, and I know it's not healthy, but I just don't have the energy to do anything else.
  18. Idk.
  19. 😔