Well,

  1. I have decided I need to make an appointment at the counseling center, as well as my doctor.
    Was supposed to do that awhile ago. Whoops.
  2. I've been struggling with depression for awhile now, and with a lack of counseling and medication, it's getting worse.
    And I feel guilty? Because I feel okay sometime throughout the day and feel happy and laugh and then when I am alone I just feel overwhelmingly sad and guilty because I was fine earlier and I don't know why I'm not fine now.
  3. I have no motivation to do anything. I can't find the motivation to clean my room, unpack my things, bring the rest of my things to school, do school work, or even shower and eat some days.
    If I don't have work or class, I'm usually in bed.
  4. I'm scared that my friends might not like me anymore and then I feel sad and want to talk to someone but I don't want to bother them and I feel like I already complain too much when I don't have that much to complain about I guess?
  5. I have been having panic attacks nearly every day, and sometimes more than once a day.
  6. In my social work classes, there has been an emphasis on the need to care for yourself.
    "You can't pour out of an empty cup."
  7. And that's what I need to do.
  8. So, I set an alarm for me to call the counseling center and my doctor tomorrow.
  9. The counseling center really helped me last semester, and I'm hoping it helps just as much this semester.