Why I don't think I can do relationships.

not too sure if these are related to my AVPD (Avoidant personality disorder)
  1. The thought alone of having someone around me most of the time makes me irritable
  2. I get emotionally suffocated, too easily
    Even with friends, I have a rule, I can't see a friend more than 3 times a week even if I want to. And I don't do daily contact, at least not on purpose or else I can't breathe. But I do love my friends.
  3. I get apologetically clingy, too easily
  4. I feel inferior, too easily
  5. I feel disconnected
  6. I sometimes just wanna turn my phone off and go somewhere no one would find me at. For a bit.
  7. I like to hear about what's upsetting them, but I can't tell them what's upsetting me, because I'll feel clingy and stupid
    I know that's wrong, but my brain cripples me.
  8. That's generally why I stop talking to people once I realize that I like them. Or I'll stay in contact but never let them know
  9. I give them space and expect mine.
    This is the only good thing, but I need it to be well structured and agreed upon. Else I'll think that they don't like me anymore.
  10. I won't be understood, or accepted for my weirdness, or the weird things I like.
  11. I get jealous
    In a way that I will feel like they're likely to leave me for anyone else, but I won't say anything or fight for them, I'll just leave slowly, because there's nothing else I know how to do
  12. I will take their comments to heart, and I will get nightmares.
    Nightmares where they are disappointed in me or diss me in public. Yep I know how stupid this must sound, but it's like waking up with a panic attack and dreading your day.
  13. I notice the change in their behavior and assume I did something wrong.
    This is not bad, if you have better self-confidence. In my case this is bad.
  14. I invest a lot more attention in them, than they do in me