THOUGHTS OF A LONELY 22-YEAR-OLD

  1. Should I be going out more?
    I haven't been out in a few weeks. Wait. Does my cousin's wedding reception count? No? Okay, it's been months.
  2. Do I have time to go out?
    Between work and school, I'm always exhausted. Should I be this tired? Aren't I supposed to be in my prime or something? I certainly don't feel like it.
  3. Do I even like going out?
    It made for some interesting stories but I really just went to spend time with my friends. We could get drunk and dance wherever we wanted to I guess.
  4. Oh my god, what happened to those friends?
    I lost touch with everyone from college and I'm still in college! Wait. I didn't lose touch with Colin. Yeah! I love Colin! Wait. He moved to Wyoming last month. Shit.
  5. Alright. Calm down.
  6. I have some friends.
    But I have no one I consistently spend my time with. It's just my mom and even she doesn't want to hang out with me all the time.
  7. But I like being alone.
    Right? I mean, it's nice to unwind and recharge.
  8. I do get restless though.
    I hate doing the same thing every day.
  9. And I want to do so many things.
    I want to travel. I want to try new things and be adventurous. Can I do that on my own? Sure. Do I want to? Not really.
  10. Maybe I should put myself out there!
    It's soooo scary though.
  11. Should I be dating more?
    I should want to, right? This is the time to date around and experience different relationships with different people.
  12. What are my options as far as dating goes?
    Tinder? Going out? Actually talking to people? Ugh.
  13. When was the last time I went on a date?
    A year? Two years? Three? What was his name? I have been asked out a few times this year but I turned them all down.
  14. Dating is scary.
    But so is everything else, dummy.
  15. Is this normal?
    Everyone my age seems to be living it up. I'm just existing.
  16. Do I suck?
    I don't suck. Okay, maybe I do a little bit.