Relaxing

What is this
  1. Today around like 3 was the first time I relaxed in like maybe two weeks
  2. I don't know what to do with this feeling
  3. Should I dance?
    I might
  4. I've been so irritated by everything lately
  5. I just had a whole conversation with someone in my family without wanting to drink
  6. I feel like going outside to the park
  7. No I don't I hate being outside
  8. But you know doing things
  9. Is this a trick is death near?
  10. "Doesn't poor steak sauce on myself"
  11. Maybe I'll go roller skating later
  12. Looks at self in disbelief