MY LIFE IN TEN SONGS
Sorry this took me so long @nathanveshecco love u
- •This list request is unbelievably difficult because music is such a big part of my life
- •But, ultimately, as I've mentioned in one of my earlier lists, music is all about connection for me
- •Connection to time, place, era, feeling, people
- •Music underscores (ha) my relationships with people
- •So, I think I'm going to use this request to talk about the songs that represent my 10 most important relationships.
- •With my father: "Edelweiss" from the Sound of MusicWhen I was four I was at my friend's house and I couldn't sleep for anything. My friend's mom called my dad and he sang this to me over the phone, and it became our song. He used to wake me up every morning singing his version: "Hannah Bee, Hannah Bee, don't you know that I love you? You're so sweet, so complete, don't you know that I love you?" This will be our father daughter dance at my wedding. I can't listen to it without calling him after and telling him I love him.
- •With my mother: "Bennie and the Jets" by Elton JohnMy mom and I have a complex and complicated relationship, something I haven't listed about out of respect for her and for my own mental health. Before things got messy and complicated, I can remember her singing "Bennie and the Jets" loudly and off-key and happily. Now that I have forgiven her and we've moved on, I like that to be the only image I keep close to me of my mom during my childhood.
- •With my brother, Grant: "All of My Days" by Alexi MurdochGrant has cooler taste in music than me. It's just true. When I first got my car, he made me a CD of songs that were important to him. This was the first one. Grant and I have gotten closer as we've gotten older, and most of our connection comes from the movies we watch together and the music we love together. We are different people but we love each other fiercely and would do anything for one another.
- •With my best friend, Michaela: "Come on Eileen" by Dexy's Midnight RunnersThis song is pretty representative of @michaelaaellis 's and my friendship: infectiously fun, great at parties, and completely incomprehensible to those not involved. Nobody in my life brings more joy and laughter than Michaela. People probably find us annoying and we don't care. We also have VERY badass choreography to this that we sometimes forget but is still wicked cool.
- •With my cousin, Maren: "Sideways" by Sheryl CrowMaren and I used to be arch nemeses but now we are the best of friends. When she would come visit me in the summer we would put this on and jam. Nobody is sillier or weirder than Maren and she brings that out in me, but whenever this song was on things were calm and contemplative. I trust her with everything and we've been through everything together.
- •With my first love, Nick: "1972" by Josh RouseNick and I fell hard and fast for each other my freshman year of high school. On one of the first days we knew each other I mentioned this song and it became Our Song. I think there's a restlessness and ease in this song, and that's who Nick and I were to each other. When we broke up I had to listen to this song over and over again to reclaim it as my own, but it's always going to be a little bit his, too. Nick and I are very good friends now and can laugh about the dramatic teenagers we were.
- •With my hometown, Las Vegas: "Purple Rain" by PrinceEvery month or so growing up, my Dad and I would drive around the city at night for hours and talk about life. We had a very specific Drive Playlist, and this was the first song on their. Whenever I hear this song, I can see how my city glows and feel how the summer air on my arm as it's out the window. I think about Vegas's secret, perfect view and long talks and tears with my dad and the way I felt small but also big. But maybe that's all just Prince.
- •With my first tough heartbreak: "Both Sides Now" by Joni MitchellI have listed about this song a bunch of times, but I think that is just a slight indication as to how much this song is responsible for getting me through. Listening to it is bittersweet, because it is so beautiful but is also a time capsule that brings me face to face with that sad, hopeless, confused girl I once was.
- •With God: "How He Loves" by David Crowder*BandI'm going to be really real with you: whenever this song comes on in church I lose my shit. It was the first song that made me cry with just how much I loved God and how much love I felt. I put it on the day I was baptized and it made me feel more whole than I'd ever felt before.