I HAVE A CRUSH

I have a crush on a bartender that's been serving me since I was underage. I gave him my number last week and I am hesitant to hang out with him because:
  1. He probably (definitely) witnessed my drunk slut phase first hand
    I used to go home with people from that bar all. the. time.
  2. He's shorter/smaller than me
    Not in a cute way. In a way that I will be constantly reminded that I am probably 100 lbs. heavier than him and at least a foot taller.
  3. He loves to drink
    I don't think I need that kind of enabling in my life right now