Feelings That I have had since I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years 2 weeks ago.

I am trying to list them somewhat chronological
  1. Deep deep sadness
  2. Guilt lots of guilt
  3. Emptiness
  4. Loss and despair
  5. Loneliness
  6. Sadness
  7. Missing him so bad
  8. More guilt
  9. Relieve to be out of a relationship that I knew wasn't good
  10. Guilt for being relieved
  11. Numbness that felt kind of good
  12. More loneliness
  13. And as of today: I am horny
  14. And confused about my wish to get physical with someone
  15. Worried that I will get physical and it is too early
  16. Confused about all the feelings as there are now to many at once