Feeling like I don't have a chance today.
  1. The crash of doom all around you when a doctor tells you you're 5 year old child has cancer.
  2. The lack of words to answer your child when they ask you at 7 years old, if they had died when they had cancer would you have killed yourself.
  3. Shock of finding out you were terribly wrong about a "friend."
  4. Sadness when finding out how much someone wishes you to fail. Even when they gain nothing from it.