Fears About My First Meditation Class vs. What Actually Happened
- •What if I don't like the instructor? What if she's smug or judge-y or so fit I get jealous of her?I lucked out here. My instructor was cool. Her voice was low and earthy like Lauren Bacall's. She told us not to stress ourselves out if we don't 100% clear our minds. She was pregnant, and I found it inspiring that she could be so calm with so much happening inside of her. I tried to mimic her pregnant belly when I was inhaling.
- •What if I get cold/hot/hungry/nauseous?I brought a sweatshirt in case it got cold but I ended up just wearing a t-shirt. Plus they had blankets. And I ate some peanut butter and crackers two hours before and didn't have any troubles so I guess that's an ideal pre-meditation snack.
- •What if the experience is so powerful I start crying in front of a bunch of strangers?Okay, this one kind of almost did happen. A thought snuck up on me that made me tear up a little, but at that moment the instructor reminded us to focus on our breath and that stopped the tears.
- •What if the opposite happens and I get nothing out of it? Then what? Do I give up? Do I waste more time and money only to further stress myself out?It's too soon to say what I got out of it. I can say I was never bored during the session. At the end, the instructor told us: "Memorize this feeling of stillness." I'm trying not to lose that memory.