ALL THE LISTS THAT I DON'T SEEM TO HAVE THE RIGHT WORDS TO FINISH

  1. WHAT POLICE OFFICERS DO WHEN THEY STOP WHITE, MIDDLE AGED, MIDDLE CLASS WOMEN FOR BREAKING THE LAW *FROM PERSONAL EXPERIENCE
    Hint: They apologize. For the inconvenience, for "having" to give you a ticket, for pulling you over in the first place.
  2. BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT
    How ALM and all the "but blacks kill other blacks" bullshit is bullshit and when you say "but what about..., you are deflecting from the issue at hand." Has anyone on Facebook or Twitter ever made a logical or persuasive argument? Have they ever had to write a research paper or give a speech?
  3. IS IT THAT HARD?!?!?
    To not straight up murder people you've sworn to protect? To take steps to deescalate confrontation? To realize there are many, many steps between "License and registration, please." and tragic bloody aftermath. To be a peace officer?
  4. IS IT THAT HARD?!?!
    To see that there is enough to go around? That your constant fear that someone is going to take something away from you that you've always had, that you "deserve", is destroying everything? There is enough. Space, money, food, respect, dignity, knowledge, kindness.
  5. IS IT THAT HARD?!?!?
    To not get so butt hurt when someone calls us out for being racist? This is usually, if you listen, a call out to a systemic, invasive problem and not a personal attack on you or your Hogwart's house.
  6. SPEARBEARERS VS NEGOTIATORS
    How much I admire a unwavering, unflinching warrior, unwilling to compromise her demands for equality and justice NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW! How strongly I feel that this persona doesn't fit every personality, and that some people do good, important work against injustice piecemeal, gathering tiny victories and holding back the tide. How frustrating it must be when, even when their ideologies converge, their methods clash.
  7. THE PRIVILEGE OF REMOVING MYSELF
    Is it self-care or white privilege to be able to say "I just can't handle any more of this today." Is it healthy thinking or denial to think "I'm going to turn off the phone/tv/radio and go outside."