WHAT I WANTED TO BE GROWING UP, CHRONOLOGICALLY
Basically a list of all the different ways I've been in denial about the fact that I want to be a writer
- •NurseI was 5 years old, and I really wanted to help people. But even at a young age, I was an over-thinker, and I soon realized I would have to deal with people dying. At said young age, I selfishly decided I couldn't handle that
- •Race car driverMy dad raced stock cars at a local track when I was little, and I thought it was the coolest thing ever. I'd be like, "My daddy is a race car driver!!" Even though I hated how loud the cars were, I wanted to be just like my dad. I eventually realized it was redneck and uncool. My dad is still my best friend though
- •SingerThe first music group I was super into was the Cheetah Girls. I wanted to be just like Raven Symone. I soon realized that I couldn't sing worth a shit. I also more recently realized that Raven is super problematic, and I don't wanna be like her at all. I guess it worked out for the better.
- •AuthorI always loved reading. In third or fourth grade, I was a huge Junie B. Jones fan and I decided I wanted to be an author just like Barbara Park. I distinctly remember writing a series of terrible stories about a girl named Marie and her many siblings as well as a story about a girl named Gabriella who dreamt of going to a Hannah Montana concert. I also used to write on this "role play" chat room on KOL (kids online, the kid version of AOL...a lil sketchy now that I think about it)
- •Tattoo ArtistKat Von D was my idol in sixth grade. I couldn't draw worth a shit.
- •Musician/SongwriterIn middle school, I started writing angsty, emo poetry. I also joined band and learned how to read music. I thought putting the two together would be a fun career choice, but I soon realized that being able to play tuba didn't mean I would be able to play guitar too. I also realized that songwriting involved much more than writing shitty poetry. I excelled in band but would later take a music theory class in high school and realize just how hella complex music really is
- •Writer (subconsciously)I started writing somewhat legitimate prose and poetry in 8th grade. I had always done it as a hobby, and I still wasn't sure if I could do it as a career, but this was basically when I started to take my writing seriously. I had a friend who was a junior at the time and had attended GSA, a summer arts program, for creative writing. I made it my goal to get into GSA when I was a junior.
- •Band directorI was in band from 6th-12th grade (marching band 8th-12th.) I started out as a percussionist, then switched to tuba in 7th grade, then to euphonium Junior year. I actually ended up being pretty good, and I enjoyed it, but it got old after a while. I also realized how young my band director was despite looking very old and realized that being a band director would probably be stressful af
- •Writer (for real)So I got into GSA, and it was life-changing. While I was there, I not only improved as a writer, but I also learned that it isn't entirely ludicrous to have a substantial career as a writer/artist. It wouldn't be easy, but it was possible. This was when I truly decided I wanted to be a writer.
- •PoetAt GSA, I found that I had a passion for poetry. While I really enjoyed fiction, it felt like it had more rules, and I think that scared me off for a while. Poetry seemed more flexible. I made it my goal to get some poetry published. This is still a goal of mine, and I'll probably always write poetry, but I kinda ditched this as a viable career option cause I don't wanna live under a bridge
- •PlaywrightI was required to write a 9-page play at GSA. This was the only experience I've had writing for stage, and I wasn't that great, but I really enjoyed writing it. I also friggin love theatre!! I plan on taking some courses to see if I can improve, so this one is still an option.
- •SenatorThis was me trying to make use of my passion for pissing off my relatives on Facebook. Don't get me wrong, I'm hella democratic (#FeelTheBern) and I care a lot about political & social issues! However, I don't really know what Benghazi is, and I had to google if women are even allowed in the senate. Maybe that's a sign that we need more women in the senate (feminism!!!!!) but I don't think I'd have the patience to work with all those rich white conservatives anyway
- •Speech writerThis was me trying to combine writing with my aforementioned strong political opinions, but I quickly realized I didn't want that responsibility on my shoulders. Like what if I were to pull a Jenna Maroney: "that's why I'm voting for Osama in 2008!!"
- •Teacher/professorThis was a very brief, fear-induced career choice. I got scared that I would die of poverty if I tried to become a writer. I still have this fear, but I've realized I would rather die than try and make young people listen to me every day
- •Screen writerThis is my current dream, largely thanks to talented, hardworking women like @mindy and @lenadunham. I've always had a love for television, but a few years ago, I became obsessed with the Office. That was the show (characters, cast, writers) that made me realize I want to create great television. Other than writing weird, morbid scripts to my favorite Disney shows as a kid, I've never really written a screenplay. But I plan on taking a screenwriting course soon. We'll see if I have what it takes