MY PHONE DIED

  1. My phone died.
  2. There's no apparent reason.
  3. I mean, I simply turned it off as I was getting ready for an appointment, since I hadn't turned it off in awhile.
  4. The appointment was for an ultrasound of the arteries in my legs.
  5. So as I was in the waiting room getting a little anxious I turned my phone back on.
  6. "Insert SIM card"
  7. What?
  8. I have Panic Disorder & Agoraphobia. So sometimes just leaving the house or driving in a car is an issue.
  9. But my toes have been numb. For about 18 months. They thought it was bc at about that same time I decided to work out and get healthy, and was running on a trampoline.
  10. Which I did. I lost 130 pounds. Go me.
  11. Except...my toes.
  12. But I ignored it for awhile bc that's what I do.
  13. "Inset SIM card"
  14. And all the exercise and stuff also helped my Panic Disorder & Agoraphobia --burning off all that adrenaline, I guess.
  15. And then I went to the dentist & ended up in chronic pain
  16. So the last year has been kind of hard
  17. And my trusty phone has been with me to help with music or games to help keep me distracted
  18. Well I'll turn it off and on again
  19. "No SIM card detected"
  20. I have an MRI of my brain on Thursday
    My brother had a brain tumor
  21. And then in two weeks will find out the results
    From the scary Neurologist who says scary words and has me take scary meds
  22. "Insert SIM card"
  23. To say I am somewhat nervous about the claustrophobic tube and the putting dye in my veins would be a bit of an understatement
  24. And I know how lucky I am to even have a phone and have access to health care and to have such a supportive and understanding family.
  25. "Mobile network unavailable"
  26. So I am probably hyper focusing on something stupid like a non working phone.
  27. But I really want my phone to work
  28. And when people ask me what I have been up to
  29. I don't mention my toes, or my mouth, or the panic, or the tests, or the doctors that seem to take up so much of my life right now
  30. But I do say
  31. My phone died.