The worst day as a pet foster carer isn't the day you send them back to be rehomed, actually.
- •We sent back the litter of foster kittens I wrote a list about a little while ago.
- •We even had a prearranged home for Thomas.Which is super rare and so amazing, being able to send them off knowing they have their future secured.
- •It was the first time in a long time I didn't cry when we left the shelter.
- •Maybe because I was excited for the next litter we'd have.And do. One of them is making our lives miserable by not eating but he'll get there.
- •Maybe because this is becoming routine.
- •I don't know.
- •But now the tears are flowing.
- •For the first time in two years, after more that thirty kittens and cats have passed through our homes, one of them died.
- •We don't really know what happened.She was desexed and eating fine and then she wasn't.
- •Sometimes these things just do.
- •And she wasn't "my" cat, so maybe I don't have the right to be so sad.
- •But I am.
- •She was just a baby.She loved having her head scratched more than anything, it was the one way you could break down her shy nature and make her purr.
- •She would have been easily adopted, she was so pretty.
- •But she's gone.
- •And this is why being a foster carer can be a really fucking tough job.
- •Because eventually, the inevitable happens.And it feels like your fault.
- •Rest peacefully, Lily.I hope we made your little life a good one.