Things I wish I knew about when my mom was killed by a drunk driver

  1. What song was playing on the radio?
  2. What was she thinking of right before the drunk California Highway Patrol officer in a patrol car rammed the back of the van?
  3. Did she know something was going terribly wrong in the second before she hit the windshield?
  4. Was her last thought thinking of my 15 year old brother, hoping he was alright?
  5. Could she feel my brother holding her mangled body in the rain as he screamed at the drunk officer to stay away from her?
  6. Did she know my brother was with her in the ambulance when she took her last breath?