When good things start happening

  1. I instantly go into panic mode
  2. Literally my body gets tense and I become light headed
  3. At any slight feeling of excitement I cringe
  4. Because excitement normally always ends with let downs
  5. I hate let downs. Some of them...ya know get me really down.
  6. It's because I expect too much.
  7. So really I should work on realistic expectations
  8. But honestly I'm a daydreamer, always have, always will.
  9. So what do I do?
  10. I run the fuckkkkk away
  11. Or sometimes I dip my tippy toes in the water
  12. Then I run even farther away.