An unseen handicap
- •I'm an epileptic Ive had seizures as far back as I can remember, I've learned the rest from my hubby( I'll explain in a minute)
- •I used to know when they were coming on, however, the older I got they became stronger and unpredictable.
- •As a kid phenobarbital was the drug of choice, local Dr's hadn't a clue since then I've been on so many I was a zombie.
- •One day at my work I blew 2 discs and herniated another, I've had to back surgeries and an implant stem in spine it left me crippled I walk with a cane or drive a scooter when available.
- •Bc of the pain and stress of this handicap, it triggered my seizures to come on with a vengeance,
- •My seizures took away most of my long-term memory of ppl that means I haven't memory of my friends family ( parents siblings etc)
- •Next bout came I had to learn to walk, talk over again.
- •The good thing out of this is now I know I have two types of seizures - stress and epileptic the difference between them is so close I have to be hooked up to see brain activity. Believe me it's harder than it seems to get those buggers to stay on head when seizing
- •My left side of body has always been weaker besides the hardcore seizures, there's a growth on my brain the side which controls the left side of body.
- •The growth they can tell how long it's been there and how in my case it's been there since I was in my mother's womb how? Drugs played the factor in this!
- •So losing memory of ppl might have been the best thing for me. Sad part is I can't say I remember when...., bc I can't... Sure I know places and things just not ppl.
- •It took some time to remember my hubby my kids and grandkids, I know enough today to be able to say I remember.. Only thing is learning difference between a video memory photo memory or story memory.
- •The thing is I meet a new person everyday, some ppl stick in my brain and some don't. Most ppl understand and will always greet me some talk to me as a child and some don't talk to me at all will only speak to my hubby or daughter.
- •This is just one unseen handicap that millions have, I'm just one story