89 Pieces of Me

Because I was born in '89 and this is my 89th list. (Don't worry. I don't actually expect anybody to read this. 😄)
  1. 1.
    My mom named me after a soap opera character.
    I like to believe this explains why I have so many "WTF!?" moments in my life.
  2. 2.
    I lived across the street from a mortuary until I was two.
    My mom actually grew up right next door to it.
  3. 3.
    I have a brother who's three and a half years younger but who is often mistaken as being the older sibling whenever we go out together.
  4. 4.
    I had a root canal and got a set of stitches within a six month period.
  5. 5.
    I once won a savings bond for having the highest GPA in my fourth grade class.
    In other words, I basically peaked at the age of ten.
  6. 6.
    While I believe happily ever afters, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm meant to have one.
  7. 7.
    My voicemail message used to be Blondie's "Call Me".
  8. 8.
    My favorite Beatle is George Harrison.
  9. 9.
    My first concert was Cher and her Farewell (For Three Years) Tour.
  10. 10.
    I have a February 15th birthday, proving that I've been too late for love since birth.
  11. 11.
    I'm not a competitive person until somebody breaks out a deck of UNO cards.
  12. 12.
    I have a crush on the guy who works at my local indie record store.
  13. 13.
    The first vinyl record I ever bought was either an original pressing of Fleetwood Mac's Rumours or Springsteen's Live: 1975-85.
  14. 14.
    However, the most interesting piece in my record collection is probably my original pressing of the Buckingham-Nicks album.
  15. 15.
    I used to talk to the Man in the Moon when I was a kid.
    I say used to, but the truth is I still do talk to the Man in the Moon whenever I need to talk some things out without having to worry about who I'm talking to.
  16. 16.
    I'm a Star Wars nerd.
    Other than the Leia figures, everything was gifted to me by family and friends. Also, this isn't all of it. 😬
  17. 17.
    My biggest flaw is that I never think I'm enough.
    Smart enough, funny enough, pretty enough- it doesn't matter what it is, chances are I won't feel like I'm enough.
  18. 18.
    I was notorious in high school for writing down song lyrics as answers to questions when I didn't know the correct response.
  19. 19.
    I tweet out song lyrics whenever I decide to take a Twitter break.
    I don't, however, do that here. Here I just disappear and I don't think anyone notices. 😄
  20. 20.
    I have a fascination with sunsets.
  21. 21.
    I also have one with old buildings and murals.
  22. 22.
    Oh, and let's not forget flowers.
  23. 23.
    My five favorite/perfect songs in the world are:
  24. 24.
    ... Stevie Nicks' "Landslide"
  25. 25.
    ... the Dusty Springfield version of "Will You Love Me Tomorrow"
  26. 26.
    ...Bonnie Raitt's "I Can't Make You Love Me"
  27. 27.
    ... Adele's version of "Make You Feel My Love"
  28. 28.
    ... and the Jeff Buckley version of "Hallelujah".
  29. 29.
    I was an honor kid in school...
  30. 30.
    ...who almost didn't graduate because she skipped so much school.
    Sorry again, Mom and Dad.
  31. 31.
    I watch TCM and Food Network late at night because they don't show commercials for horror films.
  32. 32.
    Each wall of my teenage bedroom's painted a different color.
  33. 33.
    My favorite YouTube video is a mashup of DC superheroes and The Golden Girls known as Super Golden Friends.
  34. 34.
    I memorize trivia as a way to soothe my anxiety.
  35. 35.
    There are times when I still miss my ex.
    But not in a couply, romantic way. I just sometimes miss the friendship we shared before we decided to become something more.
  36. 36.
    The only religion I practice with any kind of consistency is compassion.
  37. 37.
    I use every birthday wish, 11:11, and star to make the same exact wish.
    Maybe one day it'll actually decide to come true.
  38. 38.
    My favorite book is and always will be Maurice Sendak's Where the Wild Things Are, because it's the book that sparked my imagination as a child.
  39. 39.
    I know it's lame, but I kind of love getting snail mail.
    Unless it's bills. Bills just make me frown.
  40. 40.
    In college, I once completely bs-ed my way through a research paper on the Letters to the Editors section of The New Yorker.
  41. 41.
    I was 24 before I had my first legal drink.
  42. 42.
    I once worked in a video rental store.
    The only reward for listening to the same loop of movie trailers and dealing with people who were irate over late charges was getting to rent the new movies before their release date.
  43. 43.
    Once upon a while ago, I used to play the guitar.
    I haven't played since I broke my finger last year.
  44. 44.
    Speaking of breaking my finger, it's probably my favorite injury I've ever had due to obvious (childish) reasons.
  45. 45.
    I know it's been six months, but I still miss Duchess.
  46. 46.
    It both amazes and weirds me out to think that there might be somebody in the world who loves me enough to want to build a life with me.
  47. 47.
    My dream vacation involves exploring and eating my way around the world.
  48. 48.
    If I could go back and correct one mistake in my life, I would go back and tell high school senior Kayla to go to one of the colleges she's always dreamed of attending instead of the one everyone else is pushing on her.
  49. 49.
    One of my childhood nicknames was Phones because I was very rarely seen without my CD player and headphones.
  50. 50.
    My earliest memory is of being in my car seat and playing with a couple of dolls as we pulled into the driveway of our (then) new house.
    I was around two and a half.
  51. 51.
    Losing my childhood home to foreclosure at fourteen left a pretty nasty emotional scar on me.
  52. 52.
    My sixth grade teachers predicted that I would be a successful children's book author by 2020.
    I hate to tell them, but I don't think it's going to happen. But there's also still some time left, so who knows what might happen.
  53. 53.
    I've written a novel.
    I did it because a) I wrote a short story in high school and wanted to see where the characters went and b) I wanted to prove to myself I could do it. (It now sits in a drawer where it holds onto the smallest sliver of hope that it might one day be seen by another person's eyes.)
  54. 54.
    After meeting both Felicia Day and Sarah Dessen, the only other famous/well-known/whatever people I'd like to meet are Stevie Nicks, Gloria Steinem, Michelle Obama, Carrie Fisher, and Helen Mirren.
    It's probably better that I don't though, because I would become a mumbling, bumbling moron in their presence.
  55. 55.
    My favorite smell in the world is a bookstore.
    It's a weird yet intoxicating fragrance of coffee, ink, and inspiration.
  56. 56.
    Personality-wise, I'm a Dorothy Jane Torkelson mixed with a splash of Daria Morgendorffer and a sprinkling Lorelai Gilmore.
  57. 57.
    During that awkward phase between outgrowing cartoons but still not being quite old enough to watch more adultish shows, my parents would only allow me to watch classic shows like The Mary Tyler Moore Show, The Bob Newhart Show, I Love Lucy, etc.
    This was because they didn't contain sex, drugs, (much) cursing, or violence.
  58. 58.
    But while they were strict with what I watched, they basically allowed me to read anything I wanted.
    This is why I went into high school having already read Catcher in the Rye, Macbeth, Hamlet, etc.
  59. 59.
    I have a weakness for sunglasses.
    And if they have a fun design on them, I'm a complete goner.
  60. 60.
    My favorite quote in the world comes from Almost Famous.
  61. 61.
    My 2nd favorite quote comes from Sarah Dessen's Just Listen.
  62. 62.
    I carry a copy of Shel Silverstein's "Listen to the Mustn'ts" in my wallet.
    It's like an easy access pep talk for those times when I need one but don't have time to call someone to give me one.
  63. 63.
    I haaaaaaate talking on the telephone.
  64. 64.
    I once met a (now former) Food Network personality while I was standing on the side of the road, wearing an outfit covered in strings of Christmas lights.
    It's probably one of the best stories I'm ever going to have to tell for the rest of my life.
  65. 65.
    There are times when I have to remind my parents that they have two children.
    Being the quieter, more responsible and less assholish of the two means that they sometimes forget I need them to check in on me from time to time.
  66. 66.
    During freshman orientation week, I had a date to a (required) social function ditch me in favor of going to Walmart with his roommate.
    It was already a weird and awkward situation so I didn't cry too much over it.
  67. 67.
    I was well known in high school, but also wasn't very popular.
    Most of people knew me either because of my mother or brother.
  68. 68.
    I am the chief cake maker in my family.
    Birthdays, anniversaries, graduations, whatever- if it requires a cake, chances are I'll be the one making it.
  69. 69.
    Whenever I get stuck creative-wise, I ask myself, 'What would Nora Ephron do?'
  70. 70.
    I adopted Mo after my previous neighbors abandoned her.
    The husband had given Gizmo to the wife either for her birthday or Christmas, but after they busted up, they both walked off and left her. Being a tenderhearted animal lover, I took her food & water only to have her get out of the gate & follow me home. After the 4th time, I just decided to keep her. A month later when the wife showed back up, I asked her about her and she told me I could either have her or take her to the pound. Mo and I have been stuck together like glue ever since.
  71. 71.
    My other dog, Sweetie, is a cranky little chihuahua that I've raised since the days when she small enough to fit in the palm of my hand.
  72. 72.
    I think Stephen Chbosky's The Perks of Being a Wallflower is easily one of the most beautiful books I've ever read.
    David Levithan's Every Day and David Scheff's Beautiful Boy are two others.
  73. 73.
    Where the Red Fern Grows was the first book that ever made me cry.
    I was home with Dad and brother, who were both confused and terrified by this random outburst of tears.
  74. 74.
    I saw The Lion King four times when it was released to theatres back in '94. (I went once with my parents, once with my grandma, once with my uncle and cousins, and once on a field trip with the day care.)
    The only other time I've seen the same movie multiple times in theatres was back when Star Wars: The Force Awakens was released. However, I only saw it twice.
  75. 75.
    I once lost 100lbs.
    'Tis true that thanks to undiagnosed medical conditions and a pediatrician who kept telling my concerned mother that I would hit my growth spurt and be fine, I once weighed more than my 6'1" father. Everyone kept telling me that the only way I would lose the weight I needed to was to have weight loss surgery, which was fine except I have an aversion to hospitals & surgeries. So instead I cleaned up my eating, which helped me lose 70lbs, and then added running and yoga into the mix.
  76. 76.
    That said, I've regained 30ish of those pounds due to- among other things- reoccurring foot and ankle injuries.
    I have an appointment next month to try to figure out what's going on, so fingers crossed, y'all.
  77. 77.
    I feel like I'm on a never-ending quest for the perfect pen, the perfect pillow, and the perfect moisturizer.
  78. 78.
    Despite being able to make/bake almost anything else, I still can't make homemade chocolate chip cookies.
    On second thought, this probably isn't such a bad thing.
  79. 79.
    I failed my permit test the first time I took it, but got a near perfect score on the driving test.
    The only thing I did wrong was turn my wheels in the wrong direction while parking uphill.
  80. 80.
    I think the best way to describe my current emotional state would be a Jackson Pollock painting.
  81. 81.
    My two favorite words are hope and love.
  82. 82.
    I tend not to ask people how they are, but rather how their heart is.
    It's a blunder from childhood that I've grown kind of fond of the older I've gotten. At the very least, it stops people from giving an automatic reply of "Fine". Well, it does most of the time, anyway. 😄
  83. 83.
    If I could have any job in the world right now, I'd either want to be a travel photographer or a designer of children's playhouses/treehouses.
  84. 84.
    I own an original publicity still from 1944's To Have and Have Not...
  85. 85.
    ...and an original lobby card from 1957's Designing Woman.
  86. 86.
    I can't remember the last time I got a full, restful night of sleep.
  87. 87.
    Other than cat whiskers for a Halloween costume when I was little, I've never worn makeup.
    I'd like to say it's because of some blah blah blah thing, but the truth is that I'm just too lazy to deal with it.
  88. 88.
    Even after seven months, I still get self-conscious about the lists I post here.
    Not the trivia lists, but the ones like this sometimes leave me with a mix of "Who cares if no one likes it?" and "I care! I so care."
  89. 89.
    The only true goal I have in life right now is to be happy.
    I know it seems lame but with everything that's gone on- and is still going on-in my life, it feels like the only goal I can work towards right now.