THE BIRTHDAY WISHLIST: WHAT I WOULD WISH FOR VS. WHAT I'VE ASKED FOR
My birthday's two and a half(ish) weeks away which means one of my mother's favorite topics of conversation right now is what kind of gifts I want for it. Since I can't sleep, I decided to make a list about it. (I'm kind of rusty at list-making so forgive me if this list is, well, awful.)
- •What I would wish for:
- •for my family, friends, and the followers I have on social media to perform an act of kindnessIt's not that I have some huge presence in the world. It's just a hope that one act of kindness might beget another and then another and so on.
- •birthday cards/letters delivered via snail mailI know it probably seems silly, but one of my absolute favorite things in the world is to open up my mailbox and find a handwritten card/letter waiting.
- •to find my creative spark againIt's incredibly frustrating to sit down at a blank page or blank canvas only to find a blank mind. More than that though, I just feel like there's a whole chunk of me missing.
- •for my friend to have a good writing day...and another...and another...and another...Full disclosure, she doesn't need my wish because she's an exceptional writer who I have no doubt will once again be entrusted to tell someone else's story. Still, my heart can't help but ache at each mention of writing anxieties or musing about having possibly peaked in her career. (This is also a selfish wish because I'm ready to read something new by her.)
- •to have books signed by Judy Blume, Lois Lowry, Stephen Chbosky, Megan McCafferty, Gayle Forman, Libba Bray, and David Levithan, to add to my favorite authors shelf (or even just signed scraps of paper to add to my inspiration wall)Judy Blume's one of the authors who helped me fall in love with books when I was a kid. Lois Lowry's The Giver and Stephen Chbosky's The Perks of Being a Wallflower changed my world. Megan McCafferty's one of my forever read authors (along with Sarah) while Gayle Forman, Libba Bray, & David Levithan helped me fall back in love with books. But it's not about having something signed as much as it is knowing that I (briefly) crossed the mind of someone who's work has inspired me so much.
- •(But truthfully, I don't even care about having books signed by the authors. I mean I wouldn't toss signed books in the garbage, but honestly I would just be happy to have the opportunity to tell those authors how much their writing has inspired and mattered to me.)
- •to not feel so gosh darn lost right nowI think I'm in a transition phase of life which has me feeling like I'm standing at a crossroad with nothing but an outdated map and a busted compass to help guide me. I mean I know I'll eventually find my way again- or at least I hope I will- but not having a clear or even somewhat fuzzy idea of what comes next is kind of twelve shades of suck.
- •to not have to fight for attention on my birthday for onceI love my brother, I really do. But I would adore it if I could celebrate just one birthday without him attempting to be the center of attention.
- •tickets to see Springsteen in AtlantaHis was the music that introduced me to a world that extended beyond whatever the local country radio stations were playing.
- •What I've asked for:
- •for her and my dad to perform an act of kindnessIt can range from buying someone's coffee to making a donation to a good cause to volunteering their time. It's just whatever their hearts feel like giving that day.
- •a new Fleetwood Mac shirt since my brother's dog destroyed mineWhat truly ticks me off about the destruction of my old shirt is that I had just gotten it to that optimal level of softness.
- •a Star Wars: The Black Series Chewbacca to go with my Boushh-disguised Princess LeiaYes, I have Star Wars action figures. No, I don't care if it's lame or childish or whatever to have them.
- •The Art of Up by Tim HauserIt's the collision of three of my favorite things: movies, art, and books.