Everything Keeps Adding Up

and I'm tired
  1. I don't know if it's this election,
    waiting for everything to be /finally/ finalized,
  2. but this pain has been hitting me hard these past couple of days.
    [anxiety, depression]
  3. I know that it comes in waves for me
    and I want to do something about it.
  4. But I'm even scared to do that.
    I keep putting it off. I keep saying I'm okay. I keep telling myself I'm okay.
  5. If I go into the doctor, what will I have to say?
    What will I be asked?
  6. What if it's not real enough to her
    even though it is so real to me?
  7. This list is lame. Back to your regularly scheduled programming.