THINGS I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO MAKE MYSELF GO TO

I get too anxious and I ghost.
  1. My friend whose penis I saw's birthday party
    It was tonight and I just couldn't. Full details on the penis part here: SO YOU SAW YOUR FRIEND'S PENIS
  2. A meetup @RachelP invited me to
    I actually went and managed to go inside but then it was too loud and I got overwhelmed and couldn't make myself stay.
  3. My family's home for Thanksgiving
    It's so full of bad memories that I can't make myself go there no matter how many pumpkin pies I'm promised.
  4. Trader Joe's on the weekend
    Too fucking crowded.