Acute breakup feelings

On day 2 , after 2 1/2 years
  1. Heartbreak
    I broke my own heart
  2. Regret
    I feel no relief and wish I could reverse it all
  3. Heart vs Brain
    There's a quiet voice that knows this was a rational decision that had to happen, but my heart is screaming over it and just wants to go back
  4. Guilt
    He didn't deserve to be hurt and I hurt him
  5. Rose coloured glasses
    Today I am wearing rose coloured glasses that see the whole relationship as perfect, that I never wore during the whole relationship when I was experiencing the pains of it
  6. Flashbacks
    Painful, painful flashbacks to the last days of our relationship, and the moment I broke up with him. They're awful
  7. Memories everywhere
    Objects and situations everywhere are attached to memories, and I am grieving at each one
  8. Grief
    I have lost something good and it is my fault
  9. Sad
    Unmotivated, lethargic, discouraged
  10. Choked up
    I want to talk about it but all I can do is cry and I'm too embarrassed to cry in front of most people
  11. Worry
    I just want him to be ok. I miss him and just want to make it better for him. I want to make him happy again
  12. Tragedy
    This is a tragedy that was inevitable, that I had to confront some time. Knowing that doesn't make the pain any less intense.
  13. Loneliness
    I haven't felt this lonely in 2 1/2 years. I know I can do it but it's a shock. I wish more than anything that I could go back to his bed and just live there forever and be safe