A first grade tale...
  1. Once when I was in first grade a girl asked me what I had for dinner last night
  2. Before answering her I thought about it and remembered that I had spaghetti and meatballs
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  3. However I wasn't sure if spaghetti was a normal food or if other families generally ate it
    Boy was I wrong about that
  4. I got so scared that if I said spaghetti and meatballs she would give me a puzzled look and say "what the heck is that?"
    I literally was so afraid of looking stupid that I convinced myself that no other families in the world ate spaghetti except my freak family. Isn't it frightening that as a kid I had this much social anxiety and fear of not being like everyone else?
  5. So I lied to her and said that I had chicken
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    A food that first grade me knew other people had!
  6. She replied that she had pasta
    Pasta isn't necessarily spaghetti obviously but her saying that made me realize that spaghetti was in fact a normal food.
  7. And I realized that I had panicked and doubted myself for no reason
  8. This fear of people's reactions and fear of being an outcast is still apart of me but to a much lesser extent
  9. The older I got the more I realized that being an individual and being weird are essential to living an interesting life